Tuesday, February 2, 2016

SHUTTING THE WORLD OUT

these days..i feel like a doll in a box
I sleep,eat and sit on my bed. (for hours)
I spent a lot of time in my room which becomes my comfort zone

I did spent few minutes to do house chores 
but I quickly went back to bed after that
watching youtube,movies,songs made me feel good but it didn't last longer

I really feel lazy to live,to function well
to be happy, to talk, to text, to mingle around
so malas. I don't even know what's wrong with me anymore

I have friends, I laugh at jokes but when I'm alone
I found myself crying my heart out,thinking about life,and I suddenly feel horrible
 I question everything that I had.

waking up in the morning is the hardest one as
 I wake up hating every inch of myself
fml

Tuesday, January 26, 2016

mood swings

stupid mood swings..
struggling with this problem and it is so depressing.

i guess this waiting time has taken its toll me
the more i wait, the more i feel bad especially to myself
i started to question myself more on past things


demmit

this is so exhausting